decision making

so me and sophia couldn’t make up our minds about going to the snowball and it was driving us insane! we we’re so indecisive for atleast a week and a half and then last week on thursday we made our decision…we’re going! LOL. It’s pretty funny because we described it as getting a “nervous/ughh” feeling about going. The main thing that was holding us back was the fact that we would have to dress up and all, but then we thought about it and came to the conclusion that if we don’t go we’ll be missing out, and secondly its just one day, 2 hours of our life, whats the biggy? And the final thing was asking Amina and she said “well if you guys are i am too!” and thats when it became final lool. Funny thing is, most people dont even take a moment to breathe before they decide, for us…it took about eight days. But now we’re really pumped for it, its gonna be fun and im going to get my outfit on tuesday or friday, cant wait

i give such good advice :D

sophia: “ughh im just…. i dont know if i can jus”
me: hey cute top
sophia: ….

just blabbing :)

ok first of all my computer is like effing possessed because my mouse is moving on its own and its freaking me out kinda here. LOL. anyways so this week…NEVER ENDING. its like friday came in s l o w m o t i o n and by the end of D block today it was horrible, me sophia and DEVON (not derek sophia LOL) were playing the “i like” game we went around in a cirlce and just said random things  “i like cakes, i like red, i like blah blah”  it was pretty funny. But before that us three sneaked in Sandvoss’s room and joined the games that the aboriginal group in our school were playing until therrian came and said “go back to class” LOL. >.> therrian….what a piss of this week i must say. But D block..the class is so lame its not even funny LOL. It was so funny today though, sophia and me were sitting in art and shes trying to talk and she was like harsh whispering and i was taking everything i had to listen and her and you know why? because the WHOLE entire class was beyond silent and it was like everyone was listening ROFL. It was hilarious. This week was pretty good though, i got to listen to one of Canada’s top poets Shane Koyczan, oh man, hes great! He’s deffs. a inspiration because i love poetry and his wasnt typical it was fun and intersting and the meanings really got to me, i loved it : ) Although this week wasnt all good and fun, it was a week where you can try but it doesnt get anywhere. I felt as if the whole week i was trying for something but then by the end of yesterday, i realized that i have to stop certain things because even though sometimes those things  are the “best thing to do”  But when it turns out in a way where nothing gets acknowledged, it makes the things you were trying to do feel pointless. I’ve also realized those who will be there through the ups and downs will always be there and you should really cherish that., and when it comes to being friends with someone you shouldn’t feel guilty because others will keep on assuming. But, that doesnt mean that you, yourself should act off as others may, because the key to sharpening your traits is seeing both your rights and your wrongs, even if that means giving in to a place where it’s only one way.

the greater things in life

It isn’t about what you accomplish but what you tackle.
It’s not about why you hate but why you withhold.
It’s not about how far you run but how far you aim.
It’s not love without trust.
It’s not what you feel but what triggered it.
It’s not about day and night but how far your willing to go.
It’s not about borders and lines but about your sacrifice.
It’s not about what you believe but about your faith.
It’s not a freindship when there is no baseIt’s not a goal without desire.
It’s not about “the” paradise but about your paradise.
Because life is much more then what we see it to be,
life is a game where you twist and fall.
But if you can not see the greater things in life,
you are truly missing out on living your life.

-by me : )

life.

I was reading this book for lit. circles called “She’s Come Undone” (which by the way is really good) and there was this quote “High school is like a sickness. Trust me the fever breaks, then you get over it.” and i really liked it. It’s true, I mean in high school everything and everyone is dramatic over little things that out there in the real world, are nothing. But one thing that this quote made me realize is that yeah high school is full of drama and other things, but its also a time to reflect on yourself. I mean, when we’re in grade eight we’re new, we’re fresh to this and everything is just fun and jokes. Grade nine your kind of passed the “everything is fun and games” part but still you take litlte things to beyond dramatic extents. Then grade 10 comes a long and your over the “whatever” part, studies are getting harder and its time to become more mature. Then comes grade eleven and twelve, these are the two years where you look at those younger grades (mostly nine and eight) and realize how much you’ve grown. You realize that not everything bad is for the worst, you realize that studies are much more superior than who likes who. But, life is a cycle. You leave high school being the big fish in a small pond to going back to the small fish in a big pond. We all feed off our mistakes and others aswell, if it wasnt for those moments of “why did i do that” we would never grow up. Honestly in my opinion, stuff goes wrong for a reason. it happens so that we can see the true colors of life and slowly mend our mistakes and make them into lessons. If something happens, dont worry about loosing face, worry about the bigger picture, about the fact that you might just loose something that you might regret one day. Life’s not perfect, but hey, if it was…what would be the point in living and learning? nothing.

five day weekend

So, this weekend i have a 5 day weekend, well actually most schools in surrey do right now lol. Anyways so far its been good, i like it I mean yeah it gets boring at time but like yesterday (wednesday) i got lots of my homework done which is good, then today (thursday) I went to sophia’s house, we went to timmy’s and got some coffee then we saw this walk way and sophia said “i wonder where that would take us” and so we followed it and took some more lefts and rights and slowly we got to the most wonderful place i’ve ever seen in surrey! SOphia was telling me about this place earler when we were leaving from her house shes like “theres this place down there its got this really nice pond” and i was all “omg im gonna go see it one day” and then we ended up there!!! GOD sent us there rofl. Anyways i still cant get over it, i mean im sure most people have seen it, its called “Lakewood estates” its like near boundry park, but i have never been over there so it was a big shocker for me. I think i fell in love with it, like i wanna move there, I can see my life there ROFL.  Ok i should stop now, but man i really like it there :$ Anyway on the way back we got some sushi then went back to sophias place and watched some of a REALLY WEIRD MOVIE then changed it to another movie and ended up watching most of beowulf. On with my weekend…tomorrow (friday) im planning on going with my niece to her swimming lessons and then she said she wants to come over for a sleep over LOL so it think she has this cartoon movie she wants to watch so i’ll watch that with her ahaha, im so nice then on Saturday im planning on just devoting my day to my homework and getting it done!!! + go check out gurveens birthday. Then on Sunday in the morning i have my cousins thing to go to its like a prayer we do and its at my aunts house and we invite lots of people and like eat and stuff after the prayer, then later during the afternoon i have to go to Pm and help volunteer. <– im gonna do another blog about the what im volunteering for because well, i have some opinions i wanna share

im terrified but i’m not leaving (8)

i dont have a favorite color, i dont believe in the saying “never say never”, i don’t cry when people die until im alone, when i was younger i used to be afraid to look at tree’s at night, i used to be addicted to carrots…there’s a lot that people can’t see on the cover, but the surface isn’t where i end. You see, im the type of person who used to cry so fast, in grade eight and nine it took me a single second to burst into tears. As time passed honestly, I became really closed up, and sometimes i wish i hadn’t. Sometimes I need to talk about something, but when i open my mouth the words always seem to get stuck. I’ve tried over and over to talk about certain things with my friends, or sisters but slowly I felt like there was no need to show my feelings and started to keep everything inside. Sometims I would sit there just to take a breath and as soon as a felt teary eyed I would suck them back up and move on. The truth was that I was just tired of telling how i felt and getting nothing in return. I had told someone how i felt with everything i had inside to say and in return i got nothing and now that i look back onto it, that is what turned my feelings into a little box that i would not open. Now, as I live and walk through my life everyday i realize how important it is to talk about what you feel, it can be just one word. Yeah, sometimes life throws you things that can turn your life upside down, but there is two ways to to see these obsticles. You can either focus on the negative or you can focus on how your going to deal with it.

message

why not just say it?

its amazing

whats amazing? how just one little virus can slowly take over your whole body and make you feel like your dieing. Since wednesday night i’ve had a high fever and it lasted until yesterday (friday) night. Oh my, this is deffs. one of the worst flu’s i have ever, ever, ever expierenced!! I was uncapable of walking, talking, moving, eating basically LIVING, really all i could do was sleep and that is what i did for 3 days straight. BUT the one thing that made me wanna say “SHUT UP” was when everyone says “OMG H1N1″ like seriously? calm down people H1N1 is not a big deal, its only a big deal because the media made it into one, because they have no life. I think the only reason why people are going nuts about this virus is because this time they know the name of the virus where as usually…we dont. So like honestly people need to calm down and shut up your not going to die, u can survive it if u have survied other flu’s I just had to share that because its getting so annoying now man LOL. Anywayyss, yeah, so now im taking Tamilfu which i honeslty do not like because one of the side effects include trouble sleeping and lucky me, i got that side effect But, after 3 days of none stop fever and 2 days of missing school, monday is gonna be hell for me =( fml.

phoenix suns vs portland trail blazers

On Thursday October 22nd/09 me, nazmin and my sister went to the NBA pre-season exibition game at GM place. So on the way there the skytrain ride was pretty long because we had to go all the way to the end to Stadium station and then once we got off it was so crowded!! the outside of gm place was like flooded with people. So once we got in we were walking to our section and then as we walked in, oh my god! it was so colorful and REAL!! LOL like seriously the stands were filled with people and there was music playing and the teams were on the court it was just an awesome thing to see. I really liked our seats it was a nice and clear spot to see the game. So, the portland blazers like killed the suns LOL at two points it was a tie but then the blazers went in the hundreds and took it from there. Steve Nash, it was cool to see him playing for real, and man hes pretty damn fit for his age like seriously LOL. The funniest thing was when everyone did the wave around all around the stadium like 4 times NONE STOP LOOL but seeing it go around it looked soooooo cool, like everyone stuck to it and did it perfectly. And then the game ended and we were walking to the skytrain station and it was like jam packed!! and the skytrains were insanee the first one that left people like crammed into it and the doors barely shut LOL and so we went on the next one which was again PACKED and there was this weird 30 year old guy who was like high as hell and hes like to me “you should hold on to the pole you know you might fall you’re a little kid you know” im like uhhh, theres no where i can really fall LOL. god him and his two friends were so annoying us three were just like GET OUTTT. It was so weird and one of the dudes kept giving me and nazmin creepy smiles ahah. Anywayss, it was an awesome day, had lots of fun!!